Dry Leaf.. My Life . . .

In the sea shore I walk alone.. at nights
My eyes filled with tears
My lips crushed between my teeth
My hands wrapping myself tightly
My heart crying for its own death..

I see no future in front of me
May be I don’t see the one I wished to
It’s hard to get ready for another future
The future where I won’t see you any more
The future where I will forget you completely..

Everything around me is empty now
Everything that had had life before
I will look for a shop where I can buy a new heart
This time I will be careful not to let it fall
At least for the one who is not going to catch it..?

I will start a new beginning
I will color myself in a different brush
To hide my pains from others
I won’t let myself get wet in emotions
I’m just afraid to learn about love again . . .

Sometimes

Sometimes..
Why I feel glad, amidst the sorrows?..
Perhaps..
I search my smiles in my tears.

Sometimes..
Why I feel blessed, amidst the trials?..
Perhaps..
I feel the touch of Almighty in my fears.

Sometimes..
Why I feel loved, amidst the hurt?..
Perhaps..
I trust all my relationships are forever.

Sometimes..
Why I feel good, amidst the losses?..
Perhaps..
I feel, often bad times makes one stronger.

Sometimes..
Why I feel alone, amidst the crowd?..
Perhaps..
I find my soul in my loneliness.

Sometimes..
Why I feel secure, amidst the uncertainty?..
Perhaps..
I believe the power of hope in my helplessness.

Sometimes..
Why I feel peace, amidst the emptiness?..
Perhaps..
I do understand the value of contentment.

Sometimes I wonder?..
Why life is so precious, amidst the bitterness?..
Perhaps..
I learn "Life is beautiful yet mysterious" at the end . . .